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A Guide to Love, God, Prayer, Meditation, & Peace Within You—Right Now

A Reflection on Prayer

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It’s Thursday, April 8th, 2004. I’m sitting in my doctor’s waiting room, as always waiting to be received. In two days’ time it will be Easter, exactly sixteen years have passed since I first walked, frightened and almost without hope, into this same cozy little room. I’m perched on the same sofa examining the paintings hanging on the wall: there are two very large ones which must be quite valuable, the third however, which is my favorite  is smaller and depicts Jesus with his disciples. What strikes me is that one of them is a dwarf. “That’s me,” I’ve always thought, “the small disciple who is trying to learn from the great master.”

Everything is exactly as it was all those years ago, except for one very important thing: me. I’m no longer reduced to skin and bones with a feeble breath, but am round and curved with a new sparkle of life in my eyes. I now eat normally, I’m vegetarian, but enjoy my food and am no longer worried about those extra pounds, because I’ve learned to accept my body and take care of it. I’m trying to give it all the love that it has been deprived of for so much time.

Today is a special day. I’m rather nervous and a little sad; it’s a very difficult moment. My doctor appears at the door and holds out his hand to greet me in his usual polite manner. I walk into his study, no longer gazing downwards as I used to do, but with my head high and with a resolute step. I sit down in my usual armchair which has offered me comfort for sixteen years and, as always, I search my doctor’s eyes to try and understand his state of mind.

I need courage so I gather my strength and begin to speak.

“This is going to be a very difficult session for me because I’ve come to tell you that it’s the last time we’re going to see each other.”

My doctor’s gaze remains impassive even if for a second I notice a flicker of surprise. “Why is that?” he asks.

“Because the time has come for me to walk on my own two legs; I can’t lean on your stick for the rest of my life as this would mean I am always limited and restricted. I cannot and neither wish to remain a child, always cuddled and protected–the child must grow, become an adolescent and then an adult and take its life into its own hands with responsibility. Thank you so much for all you’ve done for me, for your help and support in all these years. Now I can eat normally and I’m able to face and stand up to all my fears, instead of running away from myself. I’m so grateful to you and will be so for the rest of my life but now I must walk out of this room with the dignity you taught me to have. If I keep coming to you, I will always have the impression of being sick, whereas I think the time has come to consider myself as being whole.”

After saying this, I get up and say goodbye with a warm hug. I leave the room and walk out of the facility without looking back. I close the grey iron gate for the last time and gaze up at the sky. I am finally free.

(Excerpt from the book The Story of Ruth – a Healing Process, by Patricia Williams Scalisi)

Ever since that day, I have tried to help people throw away their stick and walk on their own two feet, taking charge of their lives and learning to trust their own divine guidance. People frequently ask me to pray for them and although I will never refuse to do this, at the same time I invite them to go within, connect with God and ask for help and guidance themselves. They seem to think that my prayers are more powerful and effective than theirs, and yet this is not the case. Any prayer that comes from the heart is complete and perfect and has fulfilled its purpose.

God once said to me: “A few words from the heart are worth much more than any spoken or chanted liturgy. True prayer comes from the soul and is therefore immediate, spontaneous and cannot be recited from memory. Turn to Me, speak to Me, and share with Me all that is troubling you. Confide in Me as you would do with your dearest friend – I AM your dearest friend. I will listen to you with patience and love and will calm the most furious of storms, restoring you to peace and tranquility … “

For me, the greatest gift I can give a person is to help them become independent so they no longer need to resort to external sources but can find the answer to their prayers through their own connection with God. In this way they can reclaim the infinite power that lies within them and finally soar to freedom.

  • Georgianne Giese

    Nice. Thank you Patricia, for explaining the various feelings we get when someone asks us to pray for them, knowing full well that it is only when they listen with their Spirit that prayer will really sooth them.