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A Gift of Peace

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With everything going on in the world today, I wanted to share a story with you that would renew your hope and help you connect with God’s peace within you. The below story was written by Audrey Lloyd and submitted to me several years ago to be included in When God Spoke to Me. Her story didn’t make the book because we had received numerous cancer related stories and couldn’ include them all in the book. I enjoy her story and think you will too. Remember, you are worthy of hearing God’s Voice and experiencing deep peace in the midst of turmoil in your life. Blessings to you! DavidPaul

A Gift of Peace

“My history with listening inward for guidance has been erratic. Sometimes when I ask for guidance, I sit in meditation for a long time and get nothing. Other times I have not consciously asked for anything, but receive a message loud and clear. I have some theories about this. It’s possible my anxiety level over the situation troubling me or fear of hearing an answer I don’t want to hear may act like static interference. Another problem may be that at times I have deep doubts about my worthiness to receive such attention. However, sometimes even when I don’t get direct guidance, messages still do come to me. I might be speaking with a friend or family member and suddenly hear a statement that sounds like an answer to the guidance I was asking for. Or I may turn on the car radio, and a phrase from a song will jump out at me. I treasure all the messages no matter how they may come, but what I love best are direct messages. They fill me with such comfort and deep peace.

Several years ago, during a routine annual check-up, my gynecologist found a “nodule” on my right ovary. I was sent for an ultrasound and a CAT scan of my pelvis. The CAT scan reported a “possible neoplasm.” As a registered nurse, I knew that term to mean possible cancer. The terror I felt was palpable.

There was good reason for my panicky fear. My mother had died a difficult death from breast cancer when I was only 15 years old. In my 36th year, a very dear friend died of ovarian cancer. Many years later two more of my closest women friends died of cancer; one from lung cancer, the other from breast cancer. At age 60, my husband of 39 years succumbed from a protracted illness with colon cancer. All of these deaths I had suffered through, watching my loved ones dying slowly and painfully. When I saw the CAT scan report, a gripping fear settled in my solar plexus area. Was it my turn this time?

At times the awful news filled me with such a sense of dread, I could hardly think of anything else. Concentration was nearly impossible. I tried to work with this fear, doing deep breathing exercises and encouraging myself with uplifting thoughts. Sometimes it helped. Sometimes it didn’t.

The date for surgery was set, but my anxiety persisted. I was having a difficult time sleeping some nights. One particularly restless night about a week before surgery, I decided to get out of bed and sit in my meditation area to try calming my mind. After sitting quietly for about ten minutes, I “heard” a distinct thought, ungenerated by me, state, “You have nothing to fear.”

Immediately I felt a strong knowing in my heart and mind that this meant I did not have cancer. It wasn’t really a voice I heard, but a strong thought that came into my mind, accompanied by a sense of gentle, peaceful authority. A flood of peace and reassurance flowed through me.

The fear did return at times over the next week, but I found that if I used my “message” like a mantra, closed my eyes, and repeated it, I reconnected with that strong yet gentle feeling of peace. This certainly did help to sustain me through the surgery which proved my “messenger” correct.

While I appreciate all of the ways that I experience God and hear His loving Voice in my life, I continue to coax myself to believe in my own worthiness to have direct contact with the Holy Spirit within me and continue to practice asking for guidance and listening inward. I’m worth it!

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Audrey Lloyd was awarded her R.N. in 1955. In 1980 she received a Bachelor of Science from Mercy College in Tarrytown, New York, and in 1987, a Master of Arts in Psychology from Long Island University. She has four children and four grandchildren. She now enjoys retirement in the Daytona Beach, Florida.

  • Ann

    This is the doing of the Lord. I really enjoyed this message and is really touching.

  • Juli_gen2

    Halleluyah!! This is interesting, the Lord is able to do all things even when we did not have anywhere to turn to. Glory be unto God, the Alpha and Omega.

  • Mariselah41

    this is so beautiful